sort of learned an entire semester of Secured Transactions in one day and my brain feels like an egg on a Texas sidewalk in June. It's one of those recommended classes that I never took in law school because when my 3L year came (the last year of law school when I had planned on taking it), it was scheduled at the same time as Professional Responsibility (a class required to graduate). Not only that, but I think Eva is going through another little growth spurt because she had another "sleep, or cry if I'm not eating" days like the one she had a few weeks ago. Some friends told me to check out Wonder Weeks. I haven't yet, but it's on my to-do list along with a zillion other things.
Sorry, this is not something that has anything to do with pregnancy or fitness or stuff that's going into Eva's baby book, like most of the other stuff I write about. But it's almost July and the bar exam has infiltrated every cell in my brain. I know this post is going to be jumbled and full of typos. I've written enough essays today. How anyone is to be expected to memorize this much information is beyond me. I've started looking for blogs written by others in my situation, but I've had trouble finding any. I guess it's because the smart kids are too busy studying to blog. Am I not studying enough? I often wonder if I'm having too much fun for someone studying for the bar. I always stop studying after 6 and enjoy a glass of wine. I give myself most of the weekend. I really don't think I can physically or mentally study any more than I already do. So I think I'll spend some time writing about it every now and then for any panicked law grad who stumbles upon this blog.
If When I pass the bar I'll probably do a post about what I did wrong and what I did right. Here are a few others I've found so far:
Yesterday I took a practice MBE (a 6 hour multiple-choice test) and I passed (barely). That's both good and bad. I need to do better so that I have more room for error on the essay portion. All the essays involve Texas law and stuff like Secured Transactions. That's what I really need to be focusing on in the next few weeks. But I still have 3 weeks so I'm not too stressed. The mid-term was enough to light a fire under my ass but not bad enough to cause a meltdown.
On a brighter note, I finally received my exam ticket today. And I got the San Antonio location (which is awesome because we already bought our plane tickets to SA
and it would have been nice if we found out earlier.) That takes a chunk out of my stress. I was certain I missed something on that bar exam application and the last month of studying was in vain.
AAAaaandd on even brighter note... I literally just bought my one-way ticket to Texas (where we'll be until we get assigned to our new random country). On September 27th we will say aloha to Hawaii (for now). Eva and I will spend a couple of months back home with family while D attends the classes for his new position. Then we'll finally head off to our new foreign home (but you won't get dates for that).
I'm really looking forward to having two months to savor Hawaii for the first time without school or work to worry about (except now I can't surf without someone on beach baby patrol). I'm also looking forward to spending another two or three months in Texas where Evita can finally really get to know her grandparents and aunties and uncles. And I really get butterflies when I think about not knowing where I'll be after that.
I have so much to look forward to after the bar exam, I just hope the good times aren't tainted with the stress of not knowing whether or not I passed. I guess I just have to stay positive and remind myself that there are plenty of successful lawyers who didn't pass the bar for the first time (Michelle Obama, Hillary Clinton... so I'm told), and they didn't have a new baby as an excuse. And if I fail I'll have an excuse to fly back to Texas next February. But ya know what? I think I just might be able to do this.
So there ya have it. I think this counts as my "currently" post. You don't even get a picture.